I am finally taking a
look at my much neglected website and realize that my last blog post was almost a year
ago. I admit that this blogging thing has not been on the top of my priority list (I think it completely fell off the list some time last spring). After reading over my previous posts and seeing what I had hoped to do last year at this time I realize that I need to do a better job at setting and obtaining my goals.
Just in the past 8 months: I started a new position with my agency that allows me to work from home. I have helped start a local breastfeeding coalition and serve as Media Relations Representative. I was on a radio show to talk about breastfeeding and being a doula. I have met so many contacts that I wouldn’t have had such an easy time meeting on my own. It’s been a good 12 months in so many ways but there is still something missing.
I said last year I was going to start an ICAN Chapter for my area. Did.Not.Happen. However, I recently attended the ICAN Conference in St. Louis where I was able to meet so many amazing and inspiring women! I came home completely exhausted and ready to put that goal back on the top of my list.
These past 2 months have been enlightening to say the least. The ICAN conference changed my life and my perspective of what I want to be doing with my time. I miss attending births. I miss the interaction with pregnant and new mothers & babies. I’ve dreamed of opening a store for pregnant and new moms to offer products and services.
I have so much I want to do but have been holding back out of fear.
Yesterday a door opened. A feeling of calm and confidence has come over me that I haven’t felt is such a long time. A feeling of relief coupled with a little fear of not really knowing what is going to happen but I trust that it will all work out. Without going into detail I have offered to become a part-time contract worker for the breastfeeding program that I have been currently employed full-time. It ultimately came down to them requiring that I take their group insurance over my private
insurance (that we have already met the deductible for and have 100% coverage for the rest of the year). I am at peace with the decision…even if they decide to let me go completely.
I haven’t heard back but feel so much better. I’m hoping that this will give me the freedom to be able to work more with ICAN & the breastfeeding coalition,
network in my community, and take doula clients again. I want to get my CBE certification so I can begin teaching childbirth classes. I want to get at least a CLC or other certification so I can work more with breastfeeding mothers. I want to help get funding for our breastfeeding coalition that could possibly turn into a job. There is so much more I want to do.
Here’s hoping that the next 12 months are filled with new goals and accomplishments and less fear than this past year.